An emotional training

 

How do you train your emotions, impulses, feelings and tears so that it will please others? Teach me, because I fail to learn each time an emotion gets beneath me.

Can you tame your anger and contain the outbursts when you’re in front of the ones who say they care? Should you even have to, because bottling up feelings is as harmful as exposing them, don’t you think it's just better to share?

Tell me if it’s possible to control the missing and let go of him when all you want is to be accepted, or even just be forgiven? Or when must one know when to stop speaking, revealing and singing their life’s story like it’s an open book for everyone to read and go on repeating? Is dreaming a crime and believing denied, what about wishing every night that tomorrow will be bright?  

When do you stop being the doormat everyone walks all over, or how do you let go of the guilt that should have never been built? Can you control the manipulation, frustration and abolition of relationships that create your existence? And do people ever change, or is it just deranging to even think that they can. 

How do you stop the stress, or pause the pressure, keep smiling through every get together? How do you hide your love or pretend to care, fake the attraction or counteract the sexual connection? How do you eliminate the memories or be nice to your enemies? Can you conceal your fears or reveal your betrayals? Is it so easy to move on and beyond or can you turn back time to bring back your happier side?    

Is there an on and off button for anxiety or an emotion that will brace us for reality? What about a shield against failure or the perfect formula to make you an achiever? Is paranoia a disease that you can’t be relieved of, is obsession something that’s always in progression and does compassion ever come to be in fashion? Do egos dissolve and evolve you into being the bigger person, or are you left at the receiving end for life’s duration?

Does anyone tell you to stop laughing, then why tell me to stop crying? Have you ever had to shut your trap because you talk crap, then why do I need a license to write, fight or ignite my mind? Is logic your magic and judgement your movement, then why can't my words be my lifelong endorsement?  

Teach me, tell me, preach to me or fail me...because this emotional training is far too straining.